I have had my heart broken so many times that am no longer a fairy tale kind of a girl. Once upon a time I used to be the type of girl that believed forever was a thing that could happen for me, but the truth is it’s a very rare thing to have a kind of love our grandparents had. The truth is, it is a rare thing for the person you love to love you in equal measures back.
That’s the reason why I am not expecting a forever love if I date you. I have given up those expectations a long time ago. But what I promise you is that I will give you everything you could possibly ask for, you will be loved throughout the time. Because I know I have you for a very short time. I consider me love the kind of love that will burn strong and hot, until one day it too will become just ashes. While it burns, I will do everything I can to keep the flame alive.
I will hold you when the world feels like it is too much for you. I will give you affection on your saddest days. I will become the softness you have craved. I will become the home you need. I will give you all the independence you want, and in return, all I ask for is loyalty and respect. I need you to be there for me too. And I need you to hold me close on the days when the nightmares are so bad I can barely breathe. I promise you, you are not a lifeline to me. I will not cling to you to save me till we both drown. Instead, I want us to be a lifeboat together. I want us to lift each other up, support, encourage each other.
I have already spent hours wasted with people who promised me forever and ended up as a temporary as the season. People can’t promise each other forever. We have no control over the circumstances life will bring to us. I already know that you will leave. I just want us to remember each other so well after we end. Our days are numbered. So let us love each other, as much as we can, as hard as we can whilst we are here, in this moment, in this time, in these short, beautiful days. Let us love each other; because this is all the time we will get, this is as much of a fairytale as we can have.